Karmic Connections Part Two: How they affect you in the present…a true story from Diana
Could a past life agreement be keeping you from getting what you want in this lifetime?
I’d love to share a true story with you about a man I was in a relationship with and shared a significant past life with.
After you read it, be sure to post your comment to the question at the end!
It wasn’t until I was able to first clearly identify these past life agreements and truly release them in a safe space that I was able to break my pattern of attracting men who I could be in partnership with and feel loved and respected in the way that I know I deserved.
True example: Roberto
*name has been changed for privacy
When I first met Roberto, I knew it was a karmic connection (like I described in an earlier video) because within the first few minutes of our first date, I was intensely triggered emotionally. Everything he said pushed an emotional button for me, but I kept leaning in because my body felt inexpicably drawn to his. It was like my body was on auto-pilot even though my intuition was going, “Red flag! Red flag! Be careful!” Yea…I ignored that voice. He was hot. I figured maybe I was being too picky.
But it wasn’t until I went over to this home for the first time that I started to get the feeling like we had had a very significant past life together. He had this huge wall hanging up of an Aztec warrior holding this Aztec princess on the ground. When I saw it, I gasped and he smiled. “It kinda looks like you, doesn’t it?” he said seductively. And he inched closer to me. My face and my body was on fire. Be careful! Be careful! said my intuitive knowing. But, damn, he is HOT! My inner Goddess flirted back. I downed a glass of wine so I wouldn’t have to listen to the first voice anymore for the rest of the night. I stared at the wall hanging more closely.It looked EXACTLY like me and my hair stood on end. Without thinking about it, I blurted out, “I bet you have lots of corn stored up and stuff to make a fire in case the world ends, in the back left corner of your house, right?” He stared at me for what felt like an eternity.
“Yes! I haven’t told anyone that. How did you know that?” (Shit, I thought. Here we go….)
How did I know that? I just did…and I could see pictures of both of us in the Aztec community, doing some kind of marriage ritual. He was like this King, all the women loved him. And he loved the attention. I was kind of in the background even though I was supposed to be the focus of the ritual. I felt resentful, alone, betrayed by my own family.There were lots of people. Colors. Words I didn’t understand. I closed my eyes and drank more wine. This was going to be an interesting night.
I felt incredibly on edge, off-kilter and unsafe emotionally (I just never felt like I could trust this guy) but again, my body didn’t care. And so began a crazy roller-coaster, sex-fueled six month affair with Mr. Aztec. The entire time we were together, I felt myself progressively shrinking energetically and whenever the evening was over, it was the SAME pattern. I’d be EXHAUSTED and I’d feel small. Just yea..small and like my Light was dimmed somehow. And he’d have all this energy, his skin would be glowing and he’d say, “I just feel like I am a KING when I’m with you! Like I can do anything! I’m BIG!”
Now I know better. What was happening was an unhealthy energy exchange. He was taking my Light and I was letting him, giving my power away by the second and getting drained of my core Life Force. I started missing appointments and he started getting new business (he was practically broke when we met, go figure). I had never been more elated, confused, and generally all over the map than during that time with Mr. Aztec. And I was a smart, intuitive woman. Why was I WILLINGLY putting myself in this situation?
The 3 Agreements
Now I know. I had some serious karmic agreements that needed to be brought to the Light, healed and cleared. Among them?
*The belief that my worth was determined by my fertility and sexual desirability.
(In that past life picture, I was a princess, but a princess with no power-once I was married, I lost it all and had to become basically a sex slave).
*The belief that I only deserved what I was given vs. standing up for what I really wanted (In that past life, I was not given the choice of who I was with. That was decided for me from the time I was born.)
*The belief that a good woman’s duty is to her husband and to use her voice or her gifts is selfish. (In that past life, I knew that I was a powerful healer and would lead rain dances and ceremonies for children to help them heal from disease. All those tribal assignments were taken away after the marriage ceremony.)
That information came to me over the course of time in that relationship and afterwards, but if I had had someone to guide me through it, I could have arrived at that clarity a lot quicker.
The way it ended:
One day, my intuition would not be stifled any longer and I just left his house and told him that I couldn’t dim my Light anymore (yes I actually said it like that!) and he and I were finished. He pursued me for months after and as you probably guessed, I ended up going back for round 2 and round 3 before my head-heart and intuition were finally in agreement that this was NOT good for Diana! Ironically, once I finally was able to let it go, clear up that past life karma and take full responsibility for my choices in that relationships, there is now no weird or unhealthy energy between us and we parted amicably when I moved states. The karma was DONE. Thank Goddess!
Past life connections and agreements can keep you stuck unless you consciously identify, clear and release them. Along with those are the limiting core beliefs that get stuck in our subconscious field and when you can rewire that, you free yourself energetically on many levels for new things and people to come your way! (without all the roller coaster drama!)
Your Turn: Fun Question!
Q: Are you already aware of a past life you’ve had? What was it? If not, what era are you drawn to in this lifetime? Why?
Ex: I love 1920’s buildings because they represent Old Hollywood Glamor.
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RNDI CAN TRULY RELATE…… MOST OF THE THINGS THAT CATCH MY EYE IS THE AIR,THE GRASS,THE TREE,THE LAND ,THE SKY,ANIMALS…..ITS LIKE I CARED
WOW, Ok so…this really got me thinking. How do you know when someone is “taking your light”? I have always thought my boyfriend was very sensitive…anytime I am up or when I shift so does he…sometimes he shifts even more than I do (from my WORK LOL – yes, sometimes this does get me a little annoyed lol). Is there a difference from someone feeling your energy and rising to it and them taking your energy or your light? How do we decipher?
P.S. Thanks so much for sharing :0)
My pleasure Lynsey! Ok, this is a great question:Is there a difference from someone feeling your energy and rising to it and them taking your energy or your light? How do we decipher?
YES, you’ll know when someone is TAKING your energy because you can tend to feel unfocused, scattered, and physically drained. Someone BASKING in your light (in a non-Egoic way) is beautiful! If your boyfriend tends to shift in a positive way when you’re shifting , that is a good thing! Stay out of comparison land in you can and focus on your own forward movement.
Side note: I’m not sure why, but I find that the men we are in relationship with (or women) will bounce off our own energy and vice versa. It really depends on whose energy is more aligned in the moment.
Does that help? All my love!